WOW! This summer went by fast! I can not BELIEVE that ViviAnne is in Kindergarten!!! She is also gonna be 6 this week!!! MAN! She has grown up so fast!
I was thinking the other day while I was making the bed, cause that particular task does not take a lot of brain power, how people kept telling me that if I could just hang on during treatment that I would get my baby back. I pondered that statement, and have many times, usually coming up with the fact that I"m angry because I didn't get her back! I have had to re learn her and I've had to forgive myself for the times I didn't realize it was the drugs and just over all feeling like crap that caused her to behave a certain way. Anyway, this day while making the beds and pondering I realized that in reality getting her back was not truly ever an option for us. She was 2 when she was diagnosed. She was 5 and a half when the drugs were supposed to be gone and she'd "come back". But the fact of the matter is she did in fact grow and change and came out the other side a different person. We all did. So I really shouldn't be angry that I didn't get her back. I should be thankful that she is who she is and that she is this little tender hearted, mothering, smart girl who has an old soul and who is very intuitive. So intuitive! She can read a situation and understand it on a level that other kids her age can't. It sometimes makes the social aspect of her life harder but as a friend of mine pointed out that gift of hers will be a great asset as an adult and teenager which is really what is important!! It's the long haul to look at not the immediate.
She is so amazing! She watches out for her brother and he loves to be with her. He is so sweet! Sweet and funny and I love the fact that they have a bond that is so strong!!
Our little family is growing and finding our way and I have a strong faith in the fact that we will be strong and wonderful for many years to come, regardless of what else gets thrown at us. It is like Brent told our kids, we believe that God is in control of our lives and will always do what is best for us so in reality we don't need to worry, cause God is in control!!
"God's way is perfect" Psalm 18:30
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I have wondered so many times, is it the medicine or is it the fact that CJ is 6 years old. It is so hard to figure out where to draw the line. And no we will never have our babies back again, but the mature child that we have in their places is something to be very thankful for. I wish they didn't have to grow up so early in the way they did, but just think of what great adults they will be because of this.
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