Friday July 30th

We had treatment today. Her counts were excellent at 1400!!! YEE HAW! We had a very plain jane, uneventful clinic!!! Those are the very best kind!!! She is doing okay. We still struggle with her attitude of everything has to be a fight and the "end of the world as we know it" when something does not go according to how she thinks that it should drama stuff but we're working on it. 2 more Vinchristine pushes and 1 more LP is all that is currently on the chemo schedule. Praying and hoping the other shoe does not fall and she really does get out of chemo.

All in all she is doing fine. She is excited about her 5th birthday and wants to talk about it A LOT! She is ready to start Pre-K again and is also looking forward to Dance. She asked today if she would still have her port and cancer when she turns 5. And told her yes. She said, "So, nothing changes I'm just bigger right?" She is so smart. I think that is part of the reason why she does fight me so much. She runs through ABC in her head of a scenario just like I do and if our two scenarios don't match up she gets upset. Especially when she just has to be correct, right? HA HA HA. Getting to know your children is such a wonderful experience and challenge.

I for one am looking forward to meeting ViviAnne in April. When I can know that it is not the chemo making her act a certain way. Poor baby does not even know what it is like to have a day with no meds, no pains and no crummies in the tummies. She has no recollection of what it feels like to not feel like crap or altered. She will have to get to know herself too. We will all meet again in the Spring of 2011. Sad, scared, feeling cheated but yet excited, blessed and encouraged are all the feelings I have about this new family we have for ourselves on the horizon.